❤ J- ENA #. Reality Check!

Chapter 59 - Monday blues

2010-10-25T11:48:00.001+08:00

Time Check: 11.47 AM

Monday blues.. AGAIN! :(

But, i'm gonna pull thru it!

Chapter 58 - Rest in peace.

2010-10-06T13:07:00.001+08:00

Time Check: 1.01PM

In Memory of Mrs Lee, Our nation's Mother.

"She’s like the mother of Singapore. She’s the quiet one, but she’s always present in Lee Kuan Yew’s appearance"

May you Rest In Peace.

Chapter 57 - Belle luna.

2010-08-24T21:48:00.001+08:00

Time Check: 9.38 PM

Thanks for the exchanged couple sling for our 10 month together baby! And let jiayous for exams together! I swear we are going to play so hard after exams! (: I look forward to our couple phone! heh. as promise, I will buy you a blue bumper!! And not only that, I will name your phone fei da xiang! LOL =X

Miss you already!

Lets countdown together to our 0.10! heh

7 more days!

Chapter 56 - Girlfriends are like diamonds.

2010-08-16T12:15:00.000+08:00

Time Check: 12.04 PM

" Girlfriends are like Diamonds. "

As much as i wanna get my diamond tattoo with the quote on it ASAP, I am still looking for a nice and unique design of diamonds before convincing myself that what i really want. :)

I miss my girlfriends alot alot. Especially my TOFU girls!! (: It have really been long since we all met up for a meal together not counting ruby ah tiu bdae surprise dinner as one, i really really really miss us! :(( I miss vivo times, M3, marina square times, esplanade till late night, movies, and the promised we made to go ice skating together, marina baarage to fly kite and have our picnic and such! :) Holidays are here girls, let meet up okay?? :(

And my sweetie girls, Angie! you finally finish internship, and lets go shopping and chiong buffet together! i really miss you and sweetie chels. :(( clubbing soon too okay? we haven been to one together yet! :(

Lastly my sweetards! Jerilin, DD and renee! please please please arrange for sakae(!) again. hahahahah! let watch midnight and bitch like how we always do when we meet up! i miss you girls.. we need to meet up because there is so much so much we needa catch up!

Miss ya!! :(

Chapter 54 - Dream.

2010-08-05T19:33:00.000+08:00

Time Check: 7.21 PM

TODAY.

I woke up realising..

I was never that princess you said.

I woke up realising..

I've hurt enough to tell myself to try again.

I know there is someone out there. I can feel it. But it doesnt matter anymore. This time, I fell and it really hurts. Its the last, its our last. I am not trying anymore. You never wanted me, never needed me and never loved me before. Its all my one sided feelings. And today, I am brave enough to face it. I am, at the losing end this time round because I have lose my cool while waiting stupidly hoping you'll come around. Filled with unassurances, smoked with emotions, Today. I let it all out. I hate the feeling of waiting, in vein; for someone that will never appear. I gave out my heart to allow myself to fall, deeply in love with a man who doesnt feel the same and its too late for me to take it back. Although, we're not that long together, but i guess this time is different. I have never had this kind of pain before. Even when I breathe, even when i think of you, think of us. Its killing me slowly. The phone that never rings, I'll put them away. The heart thats aching, I'll leave it to time. I swear this ride home today was the longest, toughest and hardest.

Hold my heart, grab it, smash it and help me dump it.

When I miss you again when the clock strikes 10 tonight, I'll pretend you're away.

Chapter 53- Tired.

2010-07-19T11:04:00.000+08:00

Time Check: 11.03PM

ANYBODY,

JUST. SHOOT. ME. DEAD. NOW!

Chapter 52 - Dont be afraid.

2010-07-04T20:11:00.003+08:00

Time Check: 7.30PM

I wont give up because I have faith.

I wont be afraid because I am brave.

In a blink, I've follow this man for 8 months. Thicks and thins we walked thru and I am glad the bond in us remains strong. I am confident, or probably not, that he could be the man that will make it to my future. I am thinking why am I pondering over this when I have firmly gave my heart to this man and he is already a part of my daily life. He seems like the only one whom could understand me temper, the way I do things and how i really feel. But then again, I don think so. See, thats the thing. But whatever it is, whats most important is now, yes right now. I have decided to forget whatever that i need to and just focus on loving him. I must be firm, very firm now and no one should get in my way. And no, no. Not even you. Not you, but you. I will now move on with my life and you should no where be in this picture of mine even thought I have much regrets about us.

Many things have been running in my mind, my head lately when one of my girlfriend helped me put a stop in all these at starbucks yesterday. No more confusions, no more wild thoughts, nothing. Although it hurt another time and i could hear myself screaming inside, but it was really a fullstop for now. I hope I am not afraid to see whats going to happen in future and we are already history. Perhaps you dont even care now, but i know at least you cared once. And thats all enough. I wish you all the best in your happiness. All the best in anything, everything you will be doing in future. (:

I am back from MBS after a good family gathering having brunch at rIse. It was really fun celebrating my god-dad's bdae at his place after that. (: Did some shopping at la senza and got myself some new colourful pieces that could add to my collection. heh.

Actually, I feels that I really love sunday. This family warm surround me like cotton wool, lift me up and shine on me like some warm sunny sunlight. It makes me wanna work harder and earn more money to bring my parents to good breakfast every single sunday, at least.

There is no dawn without a night,

There is no victory without a fight,

There is not rainbow without a rain,

There is no happiness without a lil pain.

Remember this, it will push you further. (:

Chapter 51 - Counting down.

2010-06-30T08:20:00.001+08:00

Time Check: 8.21 AM

We are reaching our 8th month soon.

Hang on there, baby.

Chapter 51- Fight we break up, Kiss we make up. (:

2010-06-17T16:22:00.002+08:00

Time Check: 4.22PM

5 4 more days before baby's back.
Time crawls.
Be back soon.
:(

Chapter 50 - Tearing apart.

2010-06-15T00:17:00.002+08:00

Time Check: 12.15 AM

At this point of time, I am closed to be teared apart.

How am I supposed to live with it.

This journey begins here. Start now.

And I'll fight to get out of this even if I'll bleed.

Chapter 49- I will remember today.

2010-06-11T23:52:00.000+08:00

Time Check: 11.37PM

I cannot believe, while being caught in the midst of struggling with my emotional, you are out there enjoying yourself.

I dont understand why we have to end up like how we are today. You fight so hard to be here, we work so hard to be together and all we get is parting ways. I really don know where should I start from here. Which path to take up and which way to go. How am I supposed to re-plan this whole month's schedule without you in it? Now, I know how it feels like to wake up every morning telling myself not to text you, and get used of not having late phone calls every night without you putting me to sleep. I feel like crying, but I cant no matter how hard I tried. Our future plans have now vanish and all our outings are now force to call a stop. Who will bring me for movies, send me to work early in the morning and pick me up after work no matter how late?

How can I salvage this, how can I mend this? Why do we have to love each other but end up like this? And who will bring me away this time round?

It's only day 1.
And I am already missing you.

Chapter 48- Happiness

2010-06-11T01:02:00.002+08:00

Time Check: 12.49PM

After tomorrow, I swear its holidays. (: I really wan to give myself a good break before i start working like a machine again 2 weeks later. I really want to take this time to fully catch up with what I have lost. :) heheh.

Alright, tomorrow's speech and I am freaking nervous. GOSH! How can I sleep tonight man!! LOL! But nevermind, I guess I have found something to entertainment me thru out till I fall asleep. hahaha.

Actually, happiness has already lose its meaning to me. Not once, not twice but quite afew times. Althought there are many times time managed to salvage it. But I guess this time, we're almost reaching the end. Show me what time can do instead. I dont need your empty promises. :) I am trying to look things in a more positive way now and I am glad because at least there are still reasons why i am smiling now. :)

Girlfriends are diamonds, thats why.

MONDAY: Escape theme park!

TUESDAY: SWEETIES DAY OUT!!

....

MORE OUTINGS TO COME!

I wanna keep myself as pack as possible. (:

CHEERS!

chapter 47 - Falling into nothing.

2010-05-25T00:36:00.001+08:00

Time Check: 12.27am

Exams are like crap and its really draining me out. But constantly I am reminded, I worked so hard to be where I am here today. I cannot give up! :) JIAYOUS JENA!!

Its the first day of school for my 2 other girlfriends and I hope these 2 girls of mine would get settle down and adapt soon! You're really enjoy school once you made friends with your classmates. With their radar constantly on, ESPECIALLY AH TIU! ahahha.. You will really love school! (:

Many things falls safely into place recently and now, I am relaxed and waiting for the next wave to happen. My classmates are really happening and I already recieved my next topic for ICA 2 for eff comms. =.= When am I finally going to get my break! LOL.

I really cannot wait for a getaway trip with my girlfriends! These stressful and tedious life and really freaking me out and I feels so tensed every single day. Thankful enough, my girlfriends have non stop support me and be there for me thru every single chapter! :) Thanks girly girls!! Love you girls.

I am tired and I should turn in like now. Good night. ^^

Chapter 46- I never meant to start a war.

2010-05-05T19:22:00.003+08:00

Guess this time is real.
I wished I could lose these memories and start all these a new.
We cannot have the best of both world. Therefore we should know what's the priority.
The rules of this game has change.
But I won't just let go.

I'll abide the rules, re-shuffle my priorities.
And you, earn the place if you want it there.

Chapter 45- No hopes, no disappointments.

2010-04-27T22:47:00.004+08:00

Time Check: 10.38PM

With another round of emotional war, this time was worst. I never failed to tell myself this 2nd relationship would be better, I will definitely heal. But looks like nothing is really working. I brave storm alone this time round because I am already numb-ed by the time I recieved tons and tons of disappointments. It it that I am not good enough for you? I often wonder. =(

Honeymood maybe over, idk. Or it is that I am asking too much? I hate it when I am left there hanging when your piorities in life re-shuffles and I am now chuck no where near the start from the paper you're holding on. Dont tell me about growing up. Dont tell me about being independent. From the start, you said I could count on you and have your back even when the whole world were to come crashing down. Now, where are you?

You changed or is it myself. I am confused and puzzled. I cannot really sense the assurances that you would usually unload it in tons to me. Surprises? they no longer exist. You said you love me, but whats your defination of love? Convinced me that I'm thinking to much and that nothihng between us has changed. Or is it that this is part and parcel of a relationship I have yet to see? is it that I need time to adapt? Or is it you? You don know how much I tried, I cherish and treasure just because I dont want to feel the loss of losing someone I love and regret not trying again.

Love is never my game, never my forte. Thankful to have my girls as my comfort zone to hear me out, to see me cry. I should have already know, never to fall and trust totally. I have the random nightmares that gives me the unsettled feeling, had the disappointments that gives me heartaches. Time is running out and I wont compromise this time round. You have the say enough, the dice in your hands enough. Now its my turn and you place the bet.

Do you dare?

Chapter 44- Happy 5th love! ❤

2010-04-01T00:05:00.007+08:00

Time Check: 12.01am

Happy 5th month, baby!

We fight, we break up.
We kiss, we make up.

We have come these far, the surprises you gave me are really amazing!

Thanks for making you fall in love you with again and again, every single day.

151 days, 151 different feelings.

Thanks for always being so special baby.

Thanks for being, you.

Chapter 43 - Love is patiences.

2010-03-31T17:19:00.003+08:00

Time Check: 5.19 PM

I am waiting for you, still.

You know who you are!

I believe, you will be back. (:

Chapter 42- Fullstop.

2010-03-31T10:23:00.005+08:00

Time Check: 10:09 am

Crossed the last hundle, complete my last race.

Done with my 2 years of ITE, thru stormy rain and sunny sunshine, I am growth and changed. I've gained many things in my life as well as lose some. But at the end of these long and tedious process, I am me, still me.

I dont dream nor wished for a playback in this video, neither do I wanna restart all these again. Because now, I learnt that these are all memories, valuable memories that make me grow, force me to grow and now, I am looking back at all these with a smile. (:

Its gonna be another chapter in life now, and tomorrow is the day god will toss the coin and determine my future. Head and tail, I cannot predict. But of course, I pray for the best to happen. (:

But then again, every fairytale has its ending, every starting point has its ending point. No matter how bad it is, We should learn to live with it, embraced it and search for a better tomorrow. Everyday is a miracle, like how I saw 2 rainbows next to each other. ^^

Dear Classmates,

Thanks for accompanying me thru out this long and bumpy journey. We tripped and fall, fall and stand up. The supports, encouragement and motivations never failed to keep me going. Everything may have ended, but our friendships must still go on. (= Dramas, gossips and all the hulalas, it makes me laugh and smile so hard, because it once happened. Its not a dream. I tasted it, fully, to the max!

YUMMY! (:

see you guys on the 5th! (:

with lotsa ♥ ;

Jena.

Chapter 41 - Feel you, in me.

2010-03-29T18:15:00.000+08:00

Time Check: 6.04 PM

Yesterday's musical was brilliant! two thumbs up for that! (: And baby, this morning homecooked american breakfast made by you was yummilicious! ^___^ Thanks for all these surprises! I love you babbbbbbbbbbby!❤

Hehs, excited about the upcoming chalet, I have been doing lot and lots of researches about it! (: I can't wait for it to happen and the best thing is, Results are coming out just in 3 more days! like WTH, thinking about it makes me feel ants crawling all over me.

NERVOUS YET EXCITED.

Anyways, I have decided not to go back to swissotel already. Hmmms, because of the complicated timing in my schedule, I think its better to be back in sentosa! (: AND AND AND, I am meeting chelsea and angela tomorrow like finally! :) thanks for waiting for me! Attachment is over and we're so going to meet up for a good chat tomorrow! We sooo needa talk talk talk! (: hehs. I definitely wont be late this time! Because i am more then excited...!

OMG,

calm me down! :) hehs.

Chapter 40 - More then that!

2010-03-28T11:19:00.001+08:00

Time Check: 11.09am

Yesterday plan changed and nope, we didnt went to malaysia for shopping neither did we went for kalai's wedding! hahas, but in the end, I had fun with the girls yesterday!! (: They fed me with endless laughing pills and I keep on laughing all the way. hahahs! And so sad that ruby ah tiu couldnt join us because she needs to pray her grandfather. :( But nevermind, we should meet up sooon! :) hehes.

I woke up at 2 am in the morning for this exciting event to happen! (: Finally, We had this really fun, hiking-like family outing to the cemetery because a year has pass and its qing ming jie again. (: Tired, but I could feel the bond from the heart of everyone who turned up today. In the dark, scary yet secure, we walked thru many tombs of many resting souls. Walked in team, holding each other to form human chain. Lucky enough today was smooth. (: Had breakfast at family foodcourt @ yew tee and the yummy nasi lemak fills by stomach! :) hehs, Back home earlier then expected and I am soooo gonna catch my beauty sleep now! Because later in the evening, baby is going to bring me for some musical concert! :) YIPEE!!

Baby, days feel like years when you're not around. Thank god you are safe back in singapore now. (: Yipee, have fun in gym now, see you laterrrrrrrr! ❤

Chapter 39- A cup of rainbow.. please? (:

2010-03-27T01:41:00.001+08:00

Time Check: 1.31 AM

Its super late now and I just came back not long after my 3-11 shift this evening! :) hahas, its the last day of work and yummy, I feel so good now! :) hehs.

Alright! for hours, I have been looking chalet for the class and I finally get to see something. WAHAHAHA. (: I am done with the planning, more to come but at least for now, get the dates confirm, booked for the chalet and secure the place.

Alright! i have look up in the aloha chalet and I think the best timing should be 5,6,7 & 8 of april for 4 days 3 nights!

1) Biggin hill terrances.

These double-storey terraces are fully furnished with

* a living room set with TV and games table;
* dining room and a fully equipped kitchen;
* 4 bedroms, 2 queen beds, 4 single beds, 2 common bathrooms, 1 common toilet. air-conditioned bedrooms furnished with beds, wardrobes, dressers, bedside tables and wall fans;
* toilets/bathrooms with shower heaters;
* BBQ pit.

@ $ 480 for the 4 days inclusive of GST etc.. ! (:

So, I am asking for $50 per person ( but I need the funds in first) , includes BBQ and breakfast every morning. Good enough?

Vacancies are taking up! let me know ASAP!!!! before 28 march please!!!

I have post in everywhere in FB message board, walls and MSNs. Now as well as my blog! its selling fast man! I need your answers ASAP guys. (:

Chapter 38- The real countdown!

2010-03-25T00:16:00.002+08:00

Omg!! Just 2 more days to go!! Just 2 more days!
Can you hear me??? (:

Chapter 37- Cannot be any sweeter! :)

2010-03-23T22:37:00.001+08:00

Time Check: 10.27PM

The actions that speaks louder then anything elses!
You're like no other, I swear.❤

The weather this morning was perfect for an hour or 2 longer on bed with my aircon still on and my toes wiggling under my thick blanket. hahah! I was late when i promised to meet baby like 10am in the morning, with breakfast prepared for him. But but but, I woke up only at 12pm, hoping i could sleep alil longer. Lazy me! =# WAHAHAH.

Well, meet baby only at 1plus. Accompanied him to gym before we head to westmall for lunch. :) Shared ban mian with baby and like usual, we eat ikan bilis like as though we haven eaten that for years. (: Baby wants to look for couple tee since 9876543 days ago, BUT THEN. we still didnt get to find any which look yummy enough for us. Damn it! LOL!!

4 off days passed in a blink! and I am going back to reality tomorrow for another 3 days of fight before I could get myself a treat to malaysia with the girls for kalai's wedding! definitely, shopping is happening on that day! hopefully it doesnt rains and ruin our mood! hahaha. (: I promised to pamper my hands and skin with essential amount of facials, to get my complexion back! :)

Alright!
Needa sleep like NOW! :)

NIGHTS WORLD!

Chapter 36- Good old days! ^_____^

2010-03-23T01:43:00.004+08:00

Omg! I really miss that Chelsea!! Thanks for the long and late chat on the line!! I really miss that. (: I really had a good hard laugh till I almost cry man! hehs. My attachment is ending soon!! Wait for me okay! We will visit universal studio together to look for Angie. I love you girls! Can't wait to meet up soon! Hehs. (=

Chapter 35- I love you...

2010-03-22T22:59:00.001+08:00

Time Check: 10.23AM

That "I love you" , that goes straight right into my head. (:

Thanks baby.♥

I kinda like the atmosphere in my room now, with much dimmer light, music blasting from the new speaker I fix with a ramdom shuffle mode on my ipod, and of course, a warm cup of tea. (: hehs. I feel so myself now, in my most comfortable pyjamas and not forgetting my new bedroom beary slippers. ^^ plus Daddy&Mummy just bought me 2 other new toy, A winnie the pooh mobile phone and a itouch ipod which I was longing to have it since a loooooong time ago! well, how can I not be a happy jena. rightrightright?? (:

I feels so happy and healthy today too because I had subway with family and baby. Feels so nice to have a meal together with my family. (: it have been soooo long since we laugh and talk in the car full of us. (: attachment, quickly be gone! hahas.

I miss my sweetie girls alot. There is so much I needa catch up with chels and angie. So much to update them about my life, and hear from them about theirs! Straight 4 months without meeting feels like a human with insuffiencient vitamins. :( Happy pills, wait for me okay? hehs ^____^

And, rascal flatts's Bless The Broken Road is awesome!
It never stop playing in my head. Hehs.

Chapter 34- The cotton in my sweater!

2010-03-21T23:59:00.004+08:00

Words that came out without much thinking, straight from my heart.
101 reasons why I love you.
Baby, do you even know how amazing you're now? ♥

1) I love you because you make me happy!
2) I love you because you make me smile from ears to ears!
3) I love you because you are always here for me!
4) I love you because you love me more then anyone elses does!
5) I love you because you only sayang me!
6) I love you because you will wipe my tears when I cry!
7) I love you because you let me call you ah wong!
8) I love you because you loved youyou too!
9) I love you because you always bring me for movies!
10) I love you because you always protect me no matter where we are!
11) I love you because you will cover my ears when thunder roars!
12) I love you because you will always accompany me when I am alone!
13) I love you because you always put me before yourself!
14) I love you because you are gentle only towards me!
15) I love you because you tells me jokes to cheer me up!
16) I love you because you make long bus rides always a short and sweet one!
17) I love you because you always tell me that you loves me before we hang the phone!
18) I love you because you make me feels special!
19) I love you because you understands me!
20) I love you because you would cycle to my place to buy me my favourite ice cream!
21) I love you because you cooked porridge for me when I am sick!
22) I love you because you fed me medication when I am sick!
23) I love you because you send me sunflowers and roses!
24) I love you because you play pet society with me!
25) I love you because you always compromised with my temper!
26) I love you because you brought me to the zoo!
27) I love you because you remember special bookmark days!
28) I love you because you would hear my favourite song!
29) I love you because you will kiss my forehead each time before we part!
30) I love you because you reads me angel and demon!
31) I love you because you thinks of me as much as I thinks of you!
32) I love you because you will send me home safely no matter how late!
33) I love you because you get along well with all my sweethearts!
34) I love you because you will hold my hand tightly and never let go!
35) I love you because you will let me sleep in your arms!
36) I love you because you sing me to sleep!
37) I love you because you will let me decide on our meals!
38) I love you because you will wait for me without complaining!
39) I love you because you will sacrifices your sleep for me!
40) I love you because you always give me surprises!
41) I love you because you look cute when you sleep!
42) I love you because you are always thoughtful towards me!
43) I love you because you are always caring towards me!
44) I love you because you look good in formal wear!
45) I love you because you respect my family!
46) I love you because you respect elderly!
47) I love you because you helped me stick my photos on the wall!
48) I love you because you create happy memories with me!
49) I love you because you buy me dark chocolate!
50) I love you because you nevermind me FAT!
51) I love you because you love me for who I am and not what I'm not!
52) I love you because you always encourage me!
53) I love you because you supports me in everything!
54) I love you because you bring chatterbox to me all the way from malaysia!
55) I love you because you are very smart!
56) I love you because you make me wanna be a better person!
57) I love you because you pour rainbows over my blues!
58) I love you because you make me want to see you in your taekwondo uniform!
59) I love you because you always guide me the correct path!
60) I love you because you help me prepare for examinations!
61) I love you because you bring me to KFC for our favourite cheesefries!
62) I love you because you always hug me and whisper to my ears!
63) I love you because you always wake up early in the morning just to come over to accompany me!
64) I love you because you are always there during my ups and downs.
65) I love you because you would wear the clothes I chosed for you.
66) I love you because you treat me as sweet as HONEY! (:
67) I love you because you write me love letters!
68) I love you because you would watch my favourite Hongkong show with me!
69) I love you because you hold me closest to heart!
70) I love you because you would share with me your childhood memories!
71) I love you because you look cute when you smile!
72) I love you because you would go with me to my childhood places!
73) I love you because you would always help me remember things I forget!
74) I love you because you keep my photos in your wallet all the time!
75) I love you because you treat my parents like yours!
76) I love you because you never failed to tell me where you are!
77) I love you because you always unload your containers of assurances!
78) I love you because you learn how to facebook for me!
79) I love you because you will tidy my hair for me when it's messy!
80) I love you because you let me decide the design of your personal belonging!
81) I love you because you would help me carry my heavy shopping bags without complaining!
82) I love you because you will be afraid I would catch a cold when we go or movies!
83) I love you because you are never afraid to tell me about your feelings for me!
84) I love you because you let me help you dye your hair!
85) I love you because you are my best listening ears all the time!
86) I love you because you taught me how to play life 4 death!
87) I love you because your determinations impressed me!
88) I love you because you would play PS3 with me!
89) I love you because you make me melt with all your cheesyness!
90) I love you because you came back for me during 2.4KM run!
91) I love you because you watch la bi xiao xin with me!
92) I love you because you play initial D with me!
93) I love you because you bring me to sakae sushi and make me eat sour strawberry!
94) I love you because you bring me to eat my favourite ban mian!
95) I love you because you let me trim your nails for you!
96) I love you because we had that chemistry no one elses had!
97) I love you because you look cute when you get jealous because you want me so badly!
98) I love you because you would stand by me when everyone elses chose to walk away!
99) I love you because you would blend into my life so perfectly!
100) I love you because you build a bear with me and name yours JENA!
101) I love you because you are the authetic DAVID WONG LEONG FEI!

Nearing A year since you confessed your feelings, Miles and miles apart till I came back and be yours. I havent forgotten how hard those days were when you woke up especially early for me, and sleep especially late just to compromise the timing when I was in NZ despite you still have to work, the long emails and expensive phonecalls. I havent forgotten the time, patiences and love you spent on me, just to mend my broken heart and fixed it back again. Although, we've been together for just shortly 4 months going 5 , the memories and fun times we spent together is REAL. I am touched and amazed. (: You're amazing baby. Very amazing and I adores you.♥

Chaper 33- Swing, higher!

2010-03-20T23:23:00.002+08:00

Time Check: 11.01PM

I was reading thru some old post in my old blog and I read this line "We eat, we joked, we laughed, we talked, we kissed, we gossiped, we posed, we snapped, we shopped, we starbucked , we bought the same headband & we had fun! ♥ " haha, now it feels like ages since I last seen the closest friends, my loves ones. =#

I miss those carefree life, where I have so much time planning dates with my girls to many different places and spending time dressing up like some lil vainy dolls. haha, good old days! :) Sometimes, I really dont feel like growing up. Growing up makes me feel tired and old. More things coming into your life, more responsibilities and commitments to give. But sometime, I kinda like this process, especially when I get to grow together with my love ones because this process is expensive, enjoyable and cannot be bought. Definitely, valuable and I will cherished them very well. (:

Attachment is coming to an end, like finally. Soon, veryvery soon. Friday is the day and I am waiting for the very day I bid goodbye to this place. (: Grilled and burnt, screamed and tortured, tears and laughters, I really grow alot from there. Like what my AM jeffry told me, Among all the trainees, I definitely get to learn, see and experienced more because of the training programme being different with the girls. Although tougher, but it have craft a stronger jena physically and mentally. I am prepared to step out now. Step out to this plastic world with plastic humans.

My engine is slowly down, petrol is drying. I need motivation to push harder, go further and press on till friday. Convince me time is pass very quickly. My patiences are dying and I cant wait for saturday to happen! Really cannnnnnnnnnnnnot wait! :/

Ikea is always like a play ground, I have got so much I wanna have in ikea! Everything there looks like strawberries, cute with really brilliant colours. I am waiting for the day I could re-do the set up of my room! of course, not forgetting the cosy corner I have always been wanting in my room, inviting all my girls over and spent some time together! Maybe with some yummy cupcakes, starbucks, soft music and monopoly. (:

I miss baby. ~~Today~~. EVERYDAY. =( You make me secretly wished that you're here with me now.

Chapter 32- AWESOME!

2010-03-15T19:45:00.003+08:00

Time Check: 7.44PM

I CANNOT BE ANY HAPPIER NOW!
ATTACHMENT IS ENDING SOON!
EVEN BABY SAYS ITS AWESOME! (:

PRESS ON!!

Chapter 31- Tired.

2010-02-24T21:56:00.004+08:00

Time Check: 9.49 PM

Like what I told mimi, School starts, friendships starts. School ends and many other things seems to be ending too. Although I have found love, but I am greedy. I want to have the best of both world. :(

I miss being happy, I miss being me.

Chapter 30 - Because no one elses is you.

2010-02-23T23:06:00.001+08:00

Time Check: 10.10AM

Funny or what. I have heard of so many things, seen so many things. Whether good or bad, I feels like whatever now. I am literally counting down to attachment with my 2 girls and believe it or not, I cant wait to get out of this and enjoy my freedown somewhere again, having the whole world of time in our school uniform in starbuck talking and laughing like no tomorrow. But then again, things change and so doesnt people. Perhaps this is what human being is all about. So scary Even when you have the best in hand, you're still expecting for more, more and more. I dont care how others think i've changed, thinks of me. Nothing is permanent and I am already used to all these. Now, I am much a stronger person, mentally definitely.

I no longer have that mindset I've to keep all my friends I have my side. Because I now believe true friends will never walk out of you. It makes me feel warm and motivated when I recieves huixian, ayu, ruby or even mimi.. ahmad texts or phonecalls during those down and lifeless day. It cheers me up and sometimes to the extend of wanting to cry because I know, right now when I'm busy working, I still have a bunch of really supportive friends working very hard like me for attachment. & I am definitely not alone. (: I still miss my friends alot and you should know who you are! :)

I'm listening to a really catchy song called "bad romance" by the really happening lady gaga! Everyone was like humming her song and "ra-ing" all the way. hahaha! I miss those day we could blast music in class, scream and shout like everyday's s party day! :) hahaha.

But although so, I really cannot help to feel sad and dissappointed about some issue that are happening recently. I have heard about it, but you know. Its not my problem to interfer. I have picked up many hints people dropped and after much thinking, If I really have to lose this friendship between us, I will be upset. Because this bumpy road didnt come easy for this friendship we build. I think worst then what you think I thought of you, to be honest. We could have easily mend this but I guess pride is something we cannot put down. Back to this familar feeling when i thought of the closeness, the bond so stronge we share, thinking that no else any else would understand this feeling breaks my heart alot. Maybe it disgusts you, maybe you don think like me, maybe you have another opinion towards this friendship, but I dont think I am in the wrong alone for all these to happen. Maybe all these means nothing to you and you don even think about me. but Contradicting, and we are superficial now. I miss you, my friend. :(

Chapter 29- Knock out.

2010-02-20T23:24:00.000+08:00

Time Check: 11.16PM

Omg, just shoot me alive man.
How am I supposed to finish my report in 2 days time?

Faints! I am so gonna sleep late again! :(

Chapter 28- He's the song in the car I keep singing.

2010-02-18T23:25:00.001+08:00

Time Check : 10.51 PM

Hello world! Xin Nian Kuai Le ! hehs, I once told myself, when chinese new year hits, it means attachment is ending sooooon! (: hehs. Hopefully, I will be a good girl to start my report and presentation soon, stop daydreaming, sleeping and shopping! hahas. Next tuesdays luhs! holy cow! hahahaha! maine, ring some bells??? ^^

I just finish doing another project which is literally killing me because it separates me from my girls. :( different shift work, different offdays and breaktimes. Sad! Hopefully its ending soon because I hear myself back on duty tomorrow as team leader again! :) hehe.

I MUST enjoy my remaining days for attachment because I seriously don think i would go back again. hmmms, I have really good colleagues there but then again, there are always bigger picture behind we have got to think of. But there is somebody there I always looked up to and respect. My Exec. housekeeper! :) She is one of the most humourous yet loving boss, understanding and thoughtful. Which her around, we will always live the the swissotel mission - A passion for perfection! :)

Apart from that, I would miss the girls I worked with really soon! thanks for making my attachment back in singapore a fruitful, fun and enjoyable one! :) Lets press on together! It will come to an end in a flash and we will start missing all the drama, gossips and bitching sessions everywhere we go! hahas. I love you girls! ❤

Not only that, I really miss school, class and my girlfriends! especially TOFUs and my sweetie girls! :( I miss our small talks, laughing and M3 sessions! I miss TGIF, I miss project days, I miss planning for the girls bdae and I miss meeting up during weekend for starbucks! Gosh!! Not only that, I also miss going to the island with ruby ah tiu, sharing and telling her everything , sleeping and playing with my sister charmaine in class, pinch vicky's sexy ass in class and sharing all the dirty jokes sayang ayu can give and talking about hot guys all the time!! :) I miss TZ randomness, huixian blurness, adlina's sotongness and daryl's nonsense!! Not forgetting mimi's lil acts, atiqah dance steps and nani's jokes! &&& I also miss talking to seha princess. :( OMG, I can never get enough of this! and AHMAD yongtaufu!! where are you bestie!!! :( Gosh, We really got to meet up sooon! :(

Valentine's day just passed and its definitely sweeeeeeet! ❤ Thanks for the V. day gift baby! :) I really love it. :) hehs. Slowly, we are walking closer and closer to our planned outings, picnic, boat trip and all! I am really excited okay! :) hehs. Endless of laughters, joy and photos but also lots of quarrels, cold wars and fight! hahahs, but baby, lets embrace this together! and where is my bouquet of 99 strawberry lolipops? :D i'm waiting. More surprises to come, I know! Lets jiayous for attachment first okay? ❤ kisskiss!

Assignment HKrian! Have you guys started?

JIAYOUS! :)

Chapter 27 - Welcome 2010! (:

2010-01-05T23:41:00.000+08:00

Time Check : 11.11 PM

I know I am alil too late but.. goodbye 2009! (: It have been a tough and tiring year from many, especially myself. Drowning and finding myself back again, and then drowning and being saved again. Ups and Downs I am glad I am here to embrace 2010 now with my all love ones back in singapore! (: hehs. New year, new hopes, new dreams! Let all work hard to make this 2010 a year to remember!

I hope all my friends are all enjoying and adapting to the hotel life during attachment. Changes comes and goes but fret not fellow classmates, its all coming to an end soon! I miss soo many of them especially my girls and I super look forward to meet them when attachment ends. =D

I wonder if holiday trips plan are still going on probably before poly starts. I hope I could get into a poly and start studying, working towards my diploma. hmmm, hopefully.. hopefully... (= hahs. How time flies ( of course in singapore), I am already on my 2nd last week into doing rooms! hahs. 10 rooms tomorrow and I pray my check out rooms wont be like some labour room. LOL! And talking about that, I am glad my mentor guide me well. I never fail to feel that sense of achievement whenever I finished my rooms! (: And after that, I will move on to TL and I guess this is where the stress comes in because already see my girls going crazy every morning in TL room. hahas!

And also how time flies, 5 days late but, happy 2nd month to you baby. Thanks for everything, EVERYTHING! I great to have you by me to celebrate and welcome this new year write our 2nd chapter together. Tough times dont last, tough man last! Press on for your attachment! All the shits you faced every single day, don worry.. because I am with you to walk thru all these with you. Thanks for every single rainbow you colour on my sky, thanks for every single kisses on my forehead before we part, thanks for the smiles you draw on my face without fail and also thanks for all the encouragement when my motivations dried up! :) So much to say, I am thankful you never failed to be here with me after such a tiring day. hehs, Mr wong, you're the first I think of every morning and the last I gave my goodnight blessing to everynight. Please take good care of yourself baby. So many chapters more to go, I look forward to filling this thick lovestory with you!Sorry for all the unhappiness, dissappointment and heartaches, you know I never wanna make you sad. Sweet or sour it may be, it would never change this fact that ILY. *hugs*

Alrighty! will update again! till then, take care!
hehs. (:

Chapter 26- Love begets love.

2009-12-14T19:47:00.000+08:00

Time Check: 7.39PM

Phew~ A day have passed in a blink just like that! hahs. First was myself dragging my feet to work because I am now not in a same shift as the girls anymore. :( till I saw boyf, a surprise meet up before work. He must be dead tired because he came right after he just ended work and sent me to work. And then to be very first day doing rooms. HAHA! (:

It wasnt so bad afterall today because I get to see CHARMAINE during lunch!!! Vicky worked 3-11 today and thank god she had a partner with her. (: My mentor is mee ling aunty and she is a nice and patience aunty.

Met up with daryl for awhile after work together with char! :) hehs, I really cant wait for this month to end! OMG, I soo wanna meet up with my sweetie girls, go chalet with my family and also to siloso beach party with my sweetardys and their bfs! :)

Shut up about doing rooms first, I wanna start planning for all these exciting dates coming up like sooooon!~ Yipee.

bye world!

Chapter 25- Get your christmas socks ready! :)

2009-12-12T21:03:00.000+08:00

Time Check: 9.26PM
Hello World, it have been some time since i last updated. Hmms, time passes so quickly and its already the 12th this month! hehs. Attachment have been so much for me till i could hardly breathe because i will be either too tired running up and down the stairs, going room by room to get things changed or either not having regular meals because time is precious! :(

hmmms, it keeps me wondering all the time what my fellow classmates are doing in their hotel when i stand at the balcony and I get to see conrad, carlton, fullerton, mandarin oriental and all the other hotels everyday. hehs, i do miss each and every one of them badly and I hope everything will come to an end and we can meet up and start planning on a really long and fun chalet with 30 over people squeezing under a rooftop! gosh, i really miss that! :(

hmms, there is lotsa things i want for this Christmas and of course i wish santa would hear them. I would like a new puppy again and love it as much as how I loved and care for xiaoyou. I believe baby would aid me in taking good care of it because I cannot cannot afford to lose another if I manage to own a new puppy again. Not only that, I would also want go for a short and sweet overseas trip with my girlfriends really soon! :) hehs, ah ah.. thats NOT all, there is still soo much, soo much more..! but again, time and money is involved! *faints*

Yup, I should press on for the last 3 months before attachment ends! heh, I soo wanna meet up with my sweetie girls soon! I swear we are sooo going to talk for hours, go for good medicure and plan for overseas trips too! (: YAYness.

This year is finally coming to an end peeps! whats your new year resolutions, have you guys start planning already? hehs. I cant wait to start planning mine and yes, of course with boyf included! hehs.

Chapter 24- Because we are all in this together.

2009-12-05T23:21:00.000+08:00

Time Check: 10.34 PM

This week is finally closing and we are all already moving on the the next new week, doing different things again, learning new things again with each and every one of our hotel occupancy going up and down all the time! hee (: New challenges are facing up once again but we know we are in this together and we can do it! Right HK-rians? (:

Although I am doing my attachment with my 3 other favorite girlfriends but we usually never get to meet even during lunch break. Sigh! :( Thru it these, it definitely makes me more independent, stronger mentally and more mature as days goes by. =) I totally look forward to the very next meet up with my girls once again talking about everything under the sun and having our all-time-favourite- MACDONALDS! ❤ hahs. Of course, with rebecca and vicky this time round! YES! (:

My days are like rainbows these few days. Colorful, meaningful and different every single day! hehs. I have already got used to this very robot-liked routine to wake up 5.30 am in the morning and start working, walking around the hotel and complete task in a quota. I am trying very hard to love my job so that days would pass faster and I will go more then just an extra mile to see my guest smiling at me. It never fails to push me further as days passes and it keeps me dry. hehs! (: Housekeeping is definitely tedious. Its stressful, challenging, tiring and also confusing when its high house. Gosh! But its really proud to see sharifah, charmaine and vicky finishing them on time and Q-ing up to return keys at 4.30pm! Press on girls, one more week to go! ❤

I am now still currently at house, but soon.. very soon i'll be moving to do rooms! hehs, I kinda look forward, but at the same time kinda afraid. :/ LOL. My work schedule is now changed! Its supposing my last day at house, but I'll be helping to assist my team leader till next tuesday! I am supposed to start room next monday, but now they have put me on a special project and so, i'll be doing room probably in the next 2 weeks time. heh! A good thing or a bad thing, i seriously dont know. hahaha!

Phew, I am soo much a happier person now! I have made new working mates, although they are all not like my age, infact older but I am getting well with each and everyone of them, laughing and joking my day thru. hehs! I have totally forgotten about NZ, i dont feel sad or bitter each time i think of it again. haha, I appreciate my attachment more then anyone elses as this second chance is rare, I must do well and press on no matter how its going to turn out to be because I'm back in singapore! hehs ❤

On a random note, I have learnt something very special when I am checking on the kids room this morning. Life is shorter and precious, we should not waste time thinking on the unnecessary things in life. You live for yourself and whatever things you do, speak and decide, the only person you have to answer is yourself. Make each and everyday a happy one, do what you want and need to do because we are now still young! And if you think where is the link, its because I have sat down reading a book about life found somewhere in the room while waiting for more items to be brought up because one of the PM crew found it at the store and brought it up accidentally! =/ LOL..

Alright, live for yourself people! Because no one is ought to live for anyone elses, be true to yourself, be true to all the loves one around you. Be it a normal friend, a bestfriend, a soulmate, a lifetime partner, a working colleague, a superior, a neighbour or a passerby. Smile to welsome the world because only by doing so, you will realise the world smiling back at you! ❤

And last by not least, thanks so much boyf! You have never failed to end my days with colours all the time, not forgetting to draw a smile on my face and a kiss on my forehead before we part! Press on too! You can do it de. (: ❤ you baby.

Take care world, till be meet again!
BYE.

Chapter 23 - A day filled with LOVE!❤

2009-11-13T16:03:00.004+08:00

Time Check: 3.12 PM

Although its friday the 13th today but its definitely not going to ruin this day fill with love , joy and happiness! ❤ I woke up early in the morning today doing something special for someone special! I am a happy girl now. (:

Happy happy happy 27th wedding anniversary daddy and mummy!❤

Heee! Thanks so much for being sucha loving and caring parents for this family! :) thanks for always being there to support us and advice us about life. Thanks for being patiences with us and giving us a family so warm. Thanks for anything, everything you've both done for korkor and myself. ❤ Thanks for being such a positive all the time even when times are down to keep us going! :) I love you mummy and daddy! With sooo much to say, I hope my actions have deliver all to both of you. Please stay happy, healthy and loving all the time! ❤

&&&&&

Sweetardy Jerilin's 19th birthday..

Happy happy birthday to you sweetardy jerilin! ❤ May you stay healthy, pretty and sexy alright? heee, babe! I know life haven't been to good for you now. But babe, trust me. It will definitely be better as time goes by. And as we grow older, there are more and more commitments in our life we have to delicate and it definitely causes us to distance physically away from one another. =( EVEN IF we may have forgotten to give each other a big hug when we met on the busy street, but you know a simple hello from you warms my heart. ^^ You are always closely intact in my heart for you're always the one of the few who never failed show me care and concern whenever you know I am down apart from my parents. Babe, to me. Meetups no longer draw us closer, it bring us together! Thats why I have always look forward to meeting up with you and updating you about everything about my life. Stay happy okay, you know we are only a call away. I miss sakae sushi lunch meetup with you all the time and we non stop laugh about everything under the sun! :) Stay loving with sim too okay? With all my heart, I wish both you and sim will last long. I love you babe and keep in touch with me! ❤

As well as last but not least...

Baby's 19th birthday!!

Ah Wong!! Happy birthday to you alright!!! ❤ hee. I hope you like the gift I bought and card I made for you! :) Sorry for not being able to be at your celebration tonight because I have to attend my parent's wedding anniversary celebration. =( But I hope this morning meetup starts your day well! :) hee. It melts my heart TOTALLY when you said this year is different to you because I am here with you and you hope that I will be here to celebrate your birthday with you every year as you grow older and we will grow old together. ❤ HAHA. Thanks for being understanding all the time baby, thanks for assuring me with all you can and telling me that all the waits are worth it. We have got so much in our waiting list to accomplished and I will be waiting this time round to fulfill them with you one by one. (: Like I mention before, there is no reason why you should be sad when you're all along the one whom non stop trying hard to draw a smile on my face. =D Please stay safe, happy and healthy all the time okay? I love you. ❤

Heee, I told you world! Its definitely going to be a day fill with smiles, joy and happiness!

SMILES!

Chapter 22 - 11.11

2009-11-11T14:34:00.001+08:00

Time Check: 2.19 PM

Hee, Jet lag is finally over and phew~ after thinking and thinking, I have decided to take the second chance swiss is offering instead and I am soon starting work next Monday and join my sister(CHARMAINE!) , Vicky! and the rest @ swissotel! :) YAYness.

Finally its not raining on this 11/11 !! ; a day full of wishes! hee. I am so going to do something meaningful today. (: haha. Well, at the same time I recieved Ayu Sayang's TEXT last evening and I am wondering how the other girls are doing! :( Attachment is definitely not going to be easy but well, its something we all have to go thru together! And so, lets press on HK-rians! :) hee, I am also thinking to start planning our after attachment chalet once everyone agrees to it! YAYness.

Definitely, there is lotsa story to share from all my favourite girls and updates about their lifes and attachment! Lets all meet up soon. heee! *hugs*

Have fun world!
Smile because everyone deserves to be happy! :) hee.

Chapter 21 - Yesterday.

2009-11-02T11:41:00.000+08:00

Time: 11.14AM

Hello world. :) hee, Ms deon texted me this morning and arrangement have been made for me for interview and most probably its going to happen on thursday! yipee. :)

Well, lag jet is still not over yet and I hope I would quickly tune myself back to singapore timing so that my sleeping hours would be more regular. LOL! Feeling super duper tired still and I wished I could meet up with ALL my girls really soon and asked them about their life and at the same time, I will wanna hear about their ups and downs! Meet up babes.

6 months have passed from the day you confessed, I won't forget how much I once hated you, won't forget how much I used to said you're the last man I will ever wanna date and I also wont forget how I pushed you away because I never thought I would have this for you. But you know, ups and downs of my life, you spend it with me. You hear about my past relationship, you were here when my lost my favourite puppy, you lend my your listening ears when i needa voice out, you stand by me even when you knew it wasnt the correct path i am choosing, you encourage me when I am about to give up, you support me when I failed. You hold me closer then yourself and protect me when I feel helpless, you put me before yourself. All these I have seen, I already knew it long ago, but I just didnt wanna acknowledge anything. The emails you sent to me when I am so far away, you never failed motivating me to press on with life there. Till I decided to come back, you never looked down on me. Thanks for all these, thanks for everything. I am willing to give us a chance, and write chapters with you from the start of every month. There is no reasons you should be sad anymore when you're the one whom is always drawing a smile on my face. Stop saying you are dreaming, I mean it, okay? ♥

Chapter 20- Jet lagging.

2009-11-01T14:51:00.001+08:00

Time check: 2.3PM

Finally after 10hours of journey across over 5 different timezone, I am now back home. I like this kind if secure feeling seeing all the familiar faces standing over a this transparent glass door waiting for me. Their smiling faces makes me feel safe. I hugged my mummy really really tightly! I cannot help crying and I told her I'm sorry for not listening to her, I shouldnt have went.

I recieved AYU's text once I on my phone and and and my sweetest sister called me! CHARMAINE!!! heee, you know I cant wait to catch up with up. Wait for my jet lag to be over okay?? heehee. Thanks for all these encouragement! :)

I wouldnt bother how others see this, even if the schools thinks that if its unreasonable to be back and wants to fail me, I will still chosed to be back in singapore. There is no reason why I should still be there when life here is something I cannot adapt. Not like I cannot take the hardship or work, thats why I am back? I am back because I cannot adapt to the living there and its not something that can be forced. Maybe if you think you can be better there, give it a try, you will never know how it feels unless you are there to try it yourself! Who doesnt want the best for themselves, who dont know that finishing attachment there shows something? But just too bad because I believe the best for myself is to be back in singapore and do well here instead then to be here feeling helpless and not able to concentrate and fail my attachment!

I am never going to that damn place again although I love working in hotel Ibis and miss the people there also. Hmm, I am grateful to many people especially my family, david, sharon and charmaine whom never failed to support whatever decision I made for the best for myself. Hee. =) I am waiting for interviews which will most probably happen this week! Wish me luck. (:

Till I update again, jiayous everyone!

Chapter 19 - Nightmares are over, I am coming back!

2009-10-30T03:28:00.001+08:00

Time Check: 3.16 AM / 8.16AM ( NZ's timing )

Hmmms, alright. First and foremost, I have already make a decision to be back in singapore to fulfil my attachment. Life here is really crazy and there is no way I could adapt to it at all. Day and night its driving me crazy..

I dont regret coming but I think I shouldnt have come. Its an experiences learnt and even if its going to affect my result, I am still coming back. I dont wanna suffer from depression here which I think if forcing myself to stay here still, I will really get it. I wake up in the middle of the night without failed realising myself crying over nightmares which leads me to be afraid all the time. This is not the life I want.. Its like going to jail...

I swear I will be good and will ting hua. I should have listen to so many people whom stop me from coming here from the start. I should have consider more things before I come too. But well, everything is too late. I am glad my whole family support my decision especially my mummy whom non stop assuring me that she will get me back to singapore as soon as she can. I really miss singapore.

Work here is never better and definitely more shiok in singapore! but no way, I am giving up everything here to be back in singapore to do things that are much more meaningful. I dont mind working 24/7, making bed and sort every single day as long as I am in singapore! I dont wanna be an empty shell here.

To me, everyone has its point of view. No matter I make it or not, I cannot stop people from saying anything they want behind me. I want to be happy in life and I believe this is the only decision I think its correct to have me happy. My future is definitely important, but I will make it far in singapore too if I work hard. I believe there will definitely be a bunch of really supportive people in my life that thinks my decision is correct to be back! And I really wanna say thank you for everything, every encouragement when I am here. Oh, and also dave! thanks for compromising your timing even by waking up earlier just to accompany me to make me feel better! heehee. :) Really appreciate everyone.

No matter how long its going to process, I will wait because I know I am coming back. I dont wanna waste anymore time here. See you!

Chapter 19 - Is it better or not.

2009-10-26T14:21:00.000+08:00

Time Check: 1.56PM ( Singapore's timing! ) / 6.56PM ( NZ's timing)

Gosh! it have been almost a week since I am in christchurch. hahaha, and today is off day. So, I could spend some time being paitient to update this blog with this lagging internet. LOL! hmmms. I shall skip the whole long damn story of what shits actually happened during the first day that totally freaked me out.

I have already started work and its fun! :) time passes really quickly when we are working but damn it, we have still got 21 more weeks to go! hahaha.. Jet lagging is recoverying like soon and I am slowly adapting to the life here.. Slow and kinda peaceful.. but I will be back once time is up! because I really misses everyone back in singapore!

5 hours difference really gives me a big headach! :( I cannot really compromise the timing with my friends and classmates unless its my off day or theirs. hais.. Thank god, mummy is always there when I needed someone to talk to! and not forgetting dave whom always try to encourage me thru emails and make an extra effort by waking up earlier to compromise with my timing to keep me accompanied. =) thanks soo much for all the encourage from each and everyone of you guys on FB, msn and also skype! i really appreciate it! :)

& it keeps me wondering if I made the correct decision to be here. I have learnt soo much about life now although its just 1 week here. I learn not to take things for granted, cherish my family and love ones, treasure things I have, manage my money, complain about singapore weather and all! OMG! I swear I will be good when I am back in singapore!

But at the mean time, i really really miss home plenty.. soo much soo much.. =( 21 weeks more to go and its not too long. wait for me alright? I'll be back in no time!

Chapter 17 - The very last.

2009-10-14T10:01:00.000+08:00

Time Check: 9.39AM

Hello world! Gosh, it have been hell long since my last update! heee. I fulfilled many things over the past few weeks! I have already meet up when all my lovely girlfriends and sweetardys that I have all along wanna meet up! And now, the only girls that I am dying to meet up is my SWEETIE GIRLS! :(

I really needa thank mummy for spending sooo much time and effort preparing my things! These days, I have spend lotsa time with mummy, getting my things and buying and buying and buying non stop! =.= Thank god its not winter over at NZ! hahaha. Summer! so everyone wears Tee shirts, jeans and slippers! (:

Everything have been confirmed and I am flying off in 5 days time! But before that, I have one very last thing to do. And after that, I swear I am never turning back ever again. :)

Alright, I sooo needa go over to speedwing to collect my air tickets as well as passport! heee. And hey, dave! thanks for always taking out your time for me to help me in preparing my stuffs and accompanying me to everywhere I need for this trip! Many thanks (:

And also, Good luck to all my lovely girlfriends whom started attachment as well as fellow classmates! =D 5 1/2 months! Jiayous alright! (: And for those who has a blog, keep updating alright? I really wanna keep in touch often with all of you! (: Best wishes.

And lastly, It have been 3 months, youyou. You have been such a nice and good companion to me. I guess you should have reincarnated. I hope your new family treats you well, loves you as much as I do. Baby, I miss you. =(

Till then, KEEP IN TOUCH PEOPLE! (:

Chapter 16 - It's like something missing.

2009-09-27T01:28:00.001+08:00

Time Check: 1.10 AM

Its already 1 plus and although I am feeling really tired, I still have to finish printing all my New Zealand documents and get it done and ready by monday! :( Really busy these few days, have been working, planning for D&D and also looking for accomodation in NZ and air tickets with sharon! Once visa everything is done, 14 more days to go and I am feeling really really sucky now! =((

At the same time, I really miss my girls very much. Especially rebecca, ayu and vicky which I dont get to see them at all! :( No meetup sessions coming up and I really hope all of them could meet up together and we shall go for medicure together! :) I really hope there would be another TOFU stayover soon and we can spend afew days together before attachment starts and I will be all the way in New Zealand. I will miss all of them. very very much! :(

Hmmm, meet up with charmaine today and went to afew places to shop for her D&D items! LOL! she really bought many things and go back home with a smile! hahahha. I really wonder when is going to be the very next time we get to go out shopping like this again? hmmms. With the rest too, hopefully? I really want a meet up with the rest soooon!

TOFUS! :( Meet up sooooon.

Chapter 15 - Loving you is cherry pie ♥

2009-09-22T14:13:00.002+08:00

Time Check: 2.05 PM

HELLO WORLD! (:

OMG, 2 days of work during these public holidays are really really draining me out. I am close to losing my voice after 2 straight days of concourse shouting! :(

Thankful enough, ruby ah tiu is at gate 3 ! hahaha. And so, she helped me alot too! YAY. Thanks ah tiu! =D Alright, one more day to go before I get my 2 days off and one more friday to go before I end my work for this week! ♥

Time really flies, D&D is just around the corner! I really need to meet up with my girls soon for TOFUs time and Shopping! =)

Okayyyy, Its about time I leave home to meet ah tiu for her yummy macwings! will update soon! (:

♥ Shadow is burnt, yellow dance and we turn,
My lashes are dry, purple teardrops I cry,
It don't have a price, loving you is cherry pie
'Cause you know that baby I ♥

Paparazzi! This really cutee song is my current addiction! ♥

Chapter 14- Obsession ♥

2009-09-19T17:28:00.001+08:00

Time Check: 4.51 PM

Hello! (:

Heee, It have really been a long time since I blogged. =D I am down for the whole of this week and I stayed home every single day taking medicine and sleeping, sleeping and more sleeping except for yesterday. OMG. I miss working for the last 2 days and I am soooo going to work tomorrow! Ruby ah tiu, I miss you! :(

Yesterday was fun! ♥ Omg, Ah wong brought me to the zoo and I saw many animals! Snap many photos and I really really like the small monkeys best! They look super cute! I like it luhs. Thanks so much for bringing me out to freshen myself after 1 week of staying at home. I am feeling so much better now. =)

Met up with my pretty sweetards last weekend and we had so much fun! Although, we are supposed to go for movies but many things happened! Hmmms, I am glad we went singing K in the end and have our stomach fill with yummy food! Stay happy, Sweetard Renee and Sweetard Jerilin! You know you girls deserves the best! ♥ Thanks for always being there for me too! You know we are just a call away, I'll always be here to hear you out! Promised babes! ♥ More outings to come alright? =) stay happy in love! ♥

hmmms. Its a really really quiet saturday today! I look back at the photos HA'08 - HK'09 snapped over this 1 1/2 years. OMG, time passes really really fast. I kinda miss each and everyone of them. I miss the classroom moments where we used to have soooo much fun with our lecturers, asking for breaktimes, ahmad making joke and we laugh and laugh non stop. I miss us singing "well you done done me.." with daryl and Im yours with the class! I miss chalets, lepak sessions and also choir lessons where we had so much fun!! =( But now, times are different! We are now growth up adults ready for our attachment! I really really hope things goes off well to each and every of you HKrians out there alright? JIAYOUS for attachment and see you guys really sooon again!♥

& talking about attachment! hahaha. I'm now with nothing in hand. =,= swiss only put me on hold till last wednesday. I am now waiting for NZ phone interview happening probably this week. If I didnt manage to get in... I would probably need to start sending resume to hotels and go for interviews! OMG. Without a secured place in singapore, I really pray I get in to the NZ hotel although, I very much wanna work in swiss with charmaine! =(( well, see how it goes bahs. wish me luck! ♥

Alright, I'm now waiting for daddy to be home! hee. I wanna get a new phone! Not a touch screen phone if possible. Although, I wanna get the new SE phone - Satio when its coming out in the market probably in october, thinking that its a touch screen phone really turns me off a lil!!

At the same time, I really really miss my favourite girls very badly. I hope we will meet up really soon, catch up with each others life and have sooo much fun with again! heehee ♥ And charmaine, not forgetting about shopping date soon! (:

Till now, take care people and have a great weekend! ♥

Chapter 13- Because every long lost dream led me to where you are.

2009-09-12T00:54:00.002+08:00

Time Check: 12.15AM

Firstly, really congrats to ah wong! congrats for passing your BTT. LOL! =) 5 mins eh! hahaha. Jiayous for your upcoming FTT. (= hmmms, supposing had 5n2 class gathering today! But I have got a change of plan. Therefore, I gave it a miss! hahah.

WOW, how time flies.. Its already nearing the end of the first week of holidays! hahaha. And in 2 more days time, it would be exactly 2 months since baby left me. :( was walking mimi just now and waiting for her to pee and poo.. It reminds me very badly of how I used to go jogging with baby when she was much younger. I miss her very very badly and sometimes I just wished she would come back to life again. Baby.. I hope you are enjoying serenity at a better place now.

As fast as how time passes now. It would soon be my turn to start counting down on the time I have leave with my loves one in singapore before I am flying off. I have got lotsa lotsa things I wanna do before I fly. I am already starting to pen it all down and slowly starting to fulfil it one by one. Hee =D I'm excited about fulfilling it and upset about flying off. 6 months, omg! Its 6 months I'm talking about. =(

Had sakae with my really sweet sweetardys yesterday over at bugis and I seriously had a great time planning for sunday's outing as well as laughing at practically everything under the sun! Bitching sessions was RAAAAAAR! hahah. It runs in the blood babyyyy! hahah. and only they knows what I am talking about! ♥ Iuma was really big althought its kinda empty. hahaha! Babes, more outings alright! SUNDAY! (:

heee, was almost closed to rotting till cutest charmaine called me up and date me for more shopping tomorrow! HOORAYYYYY!

Till then, seeeeee you people! ♥

Have a great weekend! (:

Chapter 12- Words on replay.

2009-09-09T10:29:00.007+08:00

Time Check : 10.30 AMNo matter how long I sleep, I am always still feeling very tired. =( gastric seems to keep working on me and I am serious feeling very bad. I can almost imagine myself dying over at new zealand.

RC hotel called yesterday and informed me that charmaine and I both are being shortlisted. Nothing goes wrong, friday is the comfirmation day. For I dunno what reason, I feel so much like crying when I have to tell them about rejecting their offer because of a "better opportunity" overseas. =((

Seiously, I dont know why, as time goes closer to oct, I am more and more afraid to fly off for my attachment. Its just 6 months, but its not a short period of time neither. With a very heavy heart, I am kinda relunctant now. I know its too late for anything and so, I will just go ahead and get over and done with. I will miss alot of things.. alot alot..

In a blink of eye, we have walked thru almost one and the half years together. Cliques formed, cliques fall, we are still a class together.. It have been a dramatic 1 1/2 hrs for me and I have seen and learnt many things. Human made mistakes and of course and I am not exceptional. Many thing happened and thru thick and thins, I am glad at the very last day of school, be it just the surface or its deep down inside, everyone was united again. Videos taking, photos taking .. I will really really miss this bunch of very crazy people. I really hope ms deon could arrange with the agency to fly alil later. I wanna join my class for D&D, have soo much fun, laugh really loud and take wonderful photos together! :) More meet ups people! SHOPPING! MOVIES! :)

I've got a busy schedule ahead but I am definitely happy about it!

Wednesday- Meet my favourite girlfriends for shopping! Tofus will be there too! ♥
Thursday- Meet my sweetardys and catch up with them!
Friday- 5n2 class gathering!
Saturday- currently available!
Sunday- Meet my sweetardys again!!

ALRIGHT! I sooo needa prepare now! :)
Have soo much soo much fun people!!

ADIOS! ❤

Chapter 11 - Because he says, love is patiences.

2009-09-07T13:49:00.001+08:00

Time Check: 1.45AM

In less then 2 more hours to go, I will be sitting for my ECM test. LOL! I am not prepared for the test at all. =( Gosh! Good luck to all of you! and Jiayous. (:

On a lighter note, after this paper...

its offically H-O-L-I-D-A-Y-S !!! ♥

Chapter 10 - Sometimes, no matter how firm I am.

2009-09-06T12:11:00.002+08:00

Time Check: 11.49PM

Hello World, I am back from malaysia and I am feeling super duper tired now. Alil feverish and I feel like vomitting. I feel like as though I am still drifting somewhere in the middle of the sea. My eldest goddaddy boat us there to a small town at sebana cove. Although there was TOTALLY no shopping and all we have was the nature and ostric farms, A 2 day 1 night weekend bonding with my family really makes me a happy girl! :) We had sooo much laughter and joy especially with my sister candy around!♥

I kinda like the wind and the smell of a lil salty sea water. It makes me feels free and refreshed. Although I am afraid of water, But water sports are always my game! OMG, I miss going canoeing and kayaking with sweetie chels and angie! :( Its the very first time I've went to visit a kellong. In short, its actually kampung houses floating on the sea and right on this big patches of hole on the wooden pannel, they are all fish of different kinds. For those really interested, you can actually go to facebook, my mummy will definitely upload it soon! :)

On another hand, I have already recieved ms deon email regarding the NZ attachment. 6 months and to be honest, as time goes closer, I am more and more afraid, worried and sad. I will definitely miss my family and friends, cousins and relatives very much. :( I recieved a text that kept me warm for awhile yesterday, the text says something like, "And I will always be waiting, no matter where you're, don forget I will be here waiting for you. All you need was to just remember your way back to me."

In such a text so assuring, sometimes no matter how firm I tell myself to be, I just cant help to take a second look at those texts and reading them again and again. Thinking back on how much I once hated this guy whom never failed to stay by me. I am guilty bacause I slapped my own mouth. And yes, very guilty. I am afraid of falling back onto something really scary call - Love, for it will never be beautiful to me till the right one comes and lead me on.

ECM paper tomorrow and I seriously have got no time to study.. :( I'll just pray that the question sound logical to me in a way or another bahs!

GOOD LUCK HK-RIANS! ♥

ITS THE FIRST AND LAST PAPER~

JIAYOUS! (:

Chapter 9 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, CHARMAINE! ♥

2009-09-04T01:58:00.001+08:00

Time Check: 1.37 AM

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, CHARMINE! (:

Its your day, remember to have plenty of fun! hee.

Well, 4 september today! And that marks the 19th birthday of my very very cute twinnie's big day! :) Thick and thin we have been thru over the so many so many months, we definitely grew up and much stronger now! Thanks for always being there for me sister! I seriously thank god for creating such a wonderful angel by me and our paths crosses! (: I enjoyed every date, every outing, every movie sessions and also every moment spent with you! Thanks for always making me laugh, thanks for always making me smile, thanks for always being me my side during the highest and lowest peak of emotions. Thanks for always being my listening ears when I need someone to talk tooo. Thanks for sharing your advices with me and enlighten me with lotsa positive aspect of life! OMG, I really really appreciate it!♥

Your happiness is in your hand babe. No matter what happens, only you are in total control of your happiness. Therefore, no matter what others say, you know its NEVER gonna bring you down! Especially you-know-who!* hahahhaha! :)

I love love love love you okay! Once again, happy birthday to you, my lovely twinnie! Dont forget to wait for me and remember me when I am in New Zealand okayyyyyyy! :(

See you later during BBQ! ♥

I seriously cant wait to have fun! YAY! (:

Chapter 8 - This feeling, so familar.

2009-09-02T20:47:00.004+08:00

Time Check: 8.30 PM

7 weeks have passed since baby is gone. Should I say, long and dry. Reading back those blog posts all about her, I really miss her. =(

Hmmm, School is boring these day and I really really feel like giving it amiss. But you know, ATTENDANTS is super duper important! =.= haiyo, one more week to go! I should just jiayou luhs. hee! (:

Time is running out, I needa study because I will be out of town over the weekend. So, I will have to study really hard for that. Gosh, I NEED MOTIVATION. =(( hee, on the another hand, I seriously can't wait for friday to come! YAY. Its my twinnie sister, Charmaine's birthday!♥

This feeling, so familar.
I am not dwelling, I just felt weird.

Chapter 7 - Because life is NOT scissor, paper stone.

2009-09-02T10:36:00.002+08:00

Time Check: 10.34 AM

HELLO WORLD! :D

Alright, i'm off to school!

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! ♥

Chapter 6- Rest In Peace, youyou! :'(

2009-07-14T23:27:00.002+08:00

Time Check: 10.58 PM

Baby, Rest In Peace okay?

I'll always love you.

14-07-09.

& I'll never forget this date,

never forget you.

I'm glad at your very last breath, mummy was there on my behalf to accompany you. Maybe I am just not fated to grow old with you, although I very much wanted to. At the very end, you still have to go. Somewhere so far away where I can never get to see you again. I hope you'll rest in peace youyou. You know, I will be missing you.

You're a gift from mummy and daddy for my N level results. On the 11 of october 2006.. I remember that night where I first saw you, you're super small and cute. I immediately fall in love with you and wanted you so badly as my lil puppy. Mummy and Daddy grant my wish and thats the very day, you came into my life and although there are times I never really spend time with you. But baby, everyone knows I love you.

I remember how I fed you, remember how I pat you to sleep. You're the very first commitment that I feel soo much a responsible to give you the best all the time. Make you pretty, bring you out and treat you well. I treat you like my own daughter. Everyone knows it because I have been talking about you every single day. Day and night, you will never be off topic.

It's almost 3 years, baby. Its short and its definitely heartbreaking to know that I have to let you go because god wants you with him. All these while, Thanks for being my best companion when no one's there to hear me out, no one's there to console me when I am down, no one's there to stand by me and when no one's at home and I am afraid. Baby, you never left me.

You have always been a great baby of mine. Protecting me always and accompanying me all day long. I miss you.. I really miss you baby. I miss hugging you, kissing you, playing with you, running with you, touching your foreheads, miss you cuddling around me, miss you waiting for me, miss your smell, miss your EVERYTHING! Youyou, where are you now?

I cannot stop thinking of you at all. Not at all.. I just want you, baby. But no, its not going to happen anymore. Nothing could bring you back by my side again and I really really miss you. =( I dunno if i could ever find a dog as faithful as you, but baby.. there is no other dog that could replace you in me. I will remember you forever, youyou..

14-07-09 ; Rest in peace, baby.

ILU. ♥

Chapter 5- Youyou, you cannot give up!

2009-07-14T10:06:00.001+08:00

Time Check: 9.49AM

Its already the 3rd day since she is being admitted to hospital. I miss her and I believe mummy misses her too! I miss seeing her sitting at the sofa lying down when mummy is watching teevee. I miss seeing her sleeping like a pig everynight at the living room when I goes out to the kitchen. I miss her digging for food near the rubbish bag in the middle of the night, I miss her everything. I miss her.. I really really miss youyou.

I really dont wanna give her up yet. & I am still waiting for the doctor to call me back. =( I have work today, and therefore I cannot visit youyou. =( I hope mummy visits her for me because I know youyou misses her too. By looking at the dissappointed eyes she gave when only me and korkor visits her yesterday, breaks my heart totally. =(

I still wanna fight this battle with youyou and kill all the monster cells that is attacking her. Doctor says she needs time. but this time round, TIME is EXPENSIVE. =( But I dont wanna give up.. really dont wanna give up.

Her body MUST accept the medication given. And I am still praying day and night! Day and night for her. I hope god will hear my prayers and heal her because, I cannot afford to lose her..

I need youyou. I want youyou. I miss youyou.
& yes, I really do.
=(

Chapter 4- Quietness.

2009-07-13T09:47:00.003+08:00

Time Check: 9.37 AM

Its quite amazing to see the difference when youyou is not at home. HUGE different..! :( Even mimi became so quiet and restless as though she was hoping that youyou was around. And yes, I woke up with my whole mind full of youyou this morning. And I am wondering if everything was fine with her. But I cant wait for the visiting hours to start so that korkor can send me to visit her later.

The hospital called me up this morning. Doctor valarie updated me about youyou and she says that she is not eating once again. =( I am confused and I seriously have no idea whats wrong with her. She IS still urinating blood and whats worst is she is urinating blood that is being tranfuse into her. =( This is really bad because it means she is not improving at all. Not at all..

Although her blood counts has shoot up to 18, but thats because of the blood transfusion. As long as she aint urinating blood, it will stay at 18. but the case is not like that. Her urine is bloody, just like what doctor valerie says. And yes, doctor valerie also add on by saying, this is still at a very critical stage. And she may die anytime! =(

Tell me, how am I supposed to digest this? I miss you, youyou.

Chapter 3- I miss youyou very badly. =(

2009-07-13T01:04:00.002+08:00

Time Check: 12.54 AM

Its the very first night I am going to turn in without playing and talking to youyou. =( Yes, very first night tonight. And I am missing youyou very badly and I seriously have no idea whats happening on the other side in the hospital.

Is she eating well? still urinating blood? Is her body accepting the new red blood well? I really dunno. All i know is I really really miss youyou and I cannot stop thinking about her. I miss her waiting by the door when she smells me from the lift. I miss her running out and I always have a had time bringing her in again. I miss her walking behind me faithfully even if I walk around the whole house. I miss her waiting for me outside the toilet while I bathe. I miss her siting on my laps and fall asleep when I watched Teevee with mummy at night. I really miss youyou! =(

I will miss her scratching my door tomorrow morning to wake me up if mummy lets her out, I will miss her jumping on my bed and step on me to wake me up, I will miss her sleeping beside me if my aircon is still on, I will miss her hiding below my blanket during some random raining days in the morning. I will miss her whining when I leaves home for school every morning. I will miss her everything, and yes! I mean everything, youyou! =(

I seriously hopes she gets well soon. I need youyou to be here with me now. Seeing me in this state, she will definitely lick my tears and cuddle around me. All I pray is her to get well soon. And no, I cannot afford to lose her. I want youyou and I am thinking about her all the time. I miss you, youyou! please get well soon. =(

I cant wait for tomorrow morning to come and korkor will send me to hospital to visit youyou again! I am worried, very worried on whats going to happen. Stay strong youyou. Keep fighting, superdog! You know I love you. ❤

Chapter 2 - HOSPITALISED.

2009-07-12T18:01:00.002+08:00

Time Check: 5.38 PM

I didnt really sleep last night because I was looking after youyou thru out the night. Same goes to mummy too! She came out every 2 hrs to ask if youyou was okay. =( Things worsened over night and I had to send youyou to the hospital. She was literally not moving at all and her eyes are almost closed. Her breathing was hard and loud as though there she was really lack of oxygen. Looking at her restless eyes, makes me wanna cry. She is rejecting medication, rejection food and water once again. I had a hard time feeding her, but in the end, she vomitted everything out again. =( she collapsed after that.

I immediately washed up, get changed and all of us headed to mount pleasant animal hospital. As I carried her up, her body feels like water, soft and weak. She rest her head on my shoulders and I know she no longer has any energy left. As we reached the hospital, the doctor told us it may be liver disfunctioning because she has turned yellow. Very yellow and she its very serious and she may die anytime. I had to immediately hospitalised her and start putting her on drip as well as run a blood test for her. We left the place because the hospital is closed. Before we left, the doctor told us that youyou may die anytime, but they will try their best to save her. And she asked us to just be prepared. Mummy and I couldnt stop crying. I kept crying and crying and I suddenly felt that I really cannot afford to lose youyou. I just want her to be fine. =( Headed over to Orchard hotel for lunch with my family as its my eldest uncle's birthday while I waited for their call. 45 mins feels like years when I was waiting for their call.

The phone call came in and the results of the blood test was out. I dunno if I should be happy or not when i heard that it wasnt anything like liver or kidney failure. Its her inner immune system that has failed and its eating up her red blood cells that is causing her to reject everything and urine blood out. For a normal cannine blood count, it should be 37. But youyou's blood count is as low as 8. She is closed to dying if they dont immediately transfuse blood over to her body. And even if so, the percentage of youyou surviving is only 20%.

Headed over to the hospital after that to visit youyou. I am glad that she was active although not like usual. But this is not permanent. Its only temporary because the blood transfusion is still going on. They have to keep her observed over a week to see if everything was okay. They are also giving her huge and huge quantity of steroids to kill the bacteria and fight the white blood cells from attacking. =( Its like Leukemia in short for humans. And its totally breaking my heart when I heard about it. I hope youyou doesnt give up because we are all not giving up on her yet. Her fees are super duper high and we had spent close to $800 dollars now on her hospital bills and also medication. And it will keep adding on as time goes by.. I seriously have no idea what to do. She is not out of risk at all. Like in ICU, every min counts.. every second is crucial.

When I was so afraid and lost, I am thankful that my family supports me totally for this. I want to save youyou, I have to save her. I wanna keep her with me and grow old with her as time goes by. She is only 2years 9 months old. I still have 12 more years with her. And she is already part of my commitment in life I never wanna give up. =( Although, 20% of surviving is really low but I seriously still wanna keep fighting with her. Korkor paid for the deposite and I really really thank him for all these too. Everyone is doing their part in helping you, youyou! So, stay strong and get well soon. You must get well! =(

Chapter 1 - I cannot lose you, youyou! :(

2009-07-11T23:39:00.003+08:00

Time Check: 11.16 PM

Meet up with charmaine just now in the evening!♥♥ I have lotsa of fun once again with this cutie girl. hee =D we had fish & co and we eat till as if we haven eaten for years. LOL! the facial expression of ours is definitely classic when the waitress polietly ask us if we would like to have desserts after that. =.= hahaha.

Went shopping around and you know, she never failed making me laugh from the second we met up till the very minute we part! Even at the toilet when she is amazed by the how high the step was! OMG! charmaine, charmaine!! LOL! Headed over to WM with char while she head home and I met up with dave and wils. Chatted awhile and they came over to pay youyou a visit as they know she is sick! =D

And you know what the hell happened? Youyou almost fainted at the doorstep! :( OMG, it freaks me out totally and I was so panic and I immediately carried her up, fed her her medication and plenty of water. =( Not only I was shock, both of them were shock too! they called out my name super loudly..! :( She refused to eat her medicine, refused to drink water and refused eat her food. I am super worried for her and I really feel like crying when I couldnt do anything to help her feel better.. =(

She MUST get well soon. I wanna play with her, feed her, bathe for her, talk to her and bring her out still. She MUST get well soon. Because I love her and only she really understands my emotions. She will lick my tears when I cry, protect me when my mummy wants to hit me. And so don tell me about buying me a new dog. I only want youyou. And I hopes she gets better. I don want her to be hospitalised! =( Get well soon youyou!

And thanks for all of your concerns when you guys know youyou is sick! =( I hope she gets better soon too.